things that make me go hmmm...

This ‘hmmm’ is not a ‘happy hmmm’ or a ‘sad hmmm’. Its not related to its (supposed) cousin the ‘naughty mmm’ or even the ‘yummy mmm’. Its just a thoughtful, at times pensive , at times ‘reflective hmm’. It could border on hapless irritation or could be in the crux of helplessness. It could be used in the place of a million words that one would rather not use at a give time and place. It could be used in the place of another million words that one wished one knew in order to appear as intelligent as one looks. All in all the ‘hmmm’ that I’m discussing here is miracle in itself!

So here’s a small tribute to ‘hmmm’… here are some of the things that make me go hmmm…
- Clearing a post grad exam one day and becoming an unemployed doctor the next day! (my god, the audacity!)
- Cds not working or getting stuck in the disc drive (that changed when my disc drive stopped working all together!)
- Lights of passing cars shining through the window at night (I prefer sleeping in pitch darkness)
- Clothes that I love not fitting properly (very upsetting, am dealing with the post-exam issue here!)
- Missing a movie show because everyone was arguing about which one to catch (times like that one would want to kill all their friends… I would! Slowly and painfully)
- Someone (the maid, in most cases) turning off/on the fan/light in the morning when I’m still in bed! (I wake up very very grumpy!)
- Phone showing the low battery sign when you need it the most! (happens to me all the time!)
- Not being able to remember all the other things that I had jotted down mentally. (I think I’m losing my memory... hmmm)

the begining

True to the title… this post is the first of many (hopefully). Hopefully, because I usually lose interest in most of the things that I start. This is not because I have a short attention span but because very few things are interesting enough to hold my attention.
This post will be a brief insight into the mind of the author… me! Brief, because it won’t be a smart idea to get into the details of something that is rapidly altering… ‘Dynamic’ is what I’d like to call it. That reminds me of a book I had read not so long ago… it is called ‘The Faraway Tree’ by Enid Blyton. This faraway tree in the magic forest was… well… magical! The most interesting thing about it, other than the magical folk (Moon-face, Saucerpan-man, Dame Wash-a-lot, Angry pixie, Mr. Whatshisname, etc) that lived on the branches… was the tree top that led to a new land every week… such as ‘the land of birthdays’, ‘ the land of slaps’, ‘the land of the know-it-alls’, ‘the land of nursery rhymes’ etc. ( I can go on…!)
So the reference to context is, that my mind-set or call it my state of mind keeps changing with the day or week and today it is in a state of entropy. I’m oscillating between ‘should I finish all the domestic chores that are waiting for me’ or ‘should I keep typing some’nothings’ because it’s fun’. And now suddenly I have this sudden urge to draw a picture of the faraway tree and its folk using crayons. Seriously.

My state-of-mind (in brief):
- Is dynamic (discussed in detail above)
- Is almost always optimistic
- Borders on insanity (at times)
- Is dying to escape the self-imposed imprisonment of social obligations
- Is bored of me (i.e. the boring me)
- Wants to fly and explore
- Uses my zodiac sign as an excuse for its whimsical being (I’m a Piscean)
- Is stimulated by intelligent conversation (related to my line of work)
- Is distracted (yet again)

'till later